It started in my first year of highschool. I'd always been not exactly fat, but bigger than all my friends. So when we went into first year people started making comments. That stung. I was laughed at because all my friends were thin and I wasn't. Eventually, all but one of them got sick of being 'the group the fat girl tags along with' and gradually started avoiding me. It hurt so much that I stopped eating for a few days. Then the starvation made me feel sick and faint and I hated it, which resulted in my first real binge.
Eating heaps numbed me and I liked it, and I did the same thing night after night. My mum never said anything. I think she was embarrassed, or perhaps she just didn't care.
Since then I've just gained piles of weight and I want to stop but I don't feel like I can. I hope keeping this journal and speaking to people with similar problems will help somehow.